pink shadow

bruised face and purple skin
are all that i can remember
from your last night's sweet litany
stabbing words
piercing touch
disturbing serenity
are all that i have in this solitary

acceptance is all that i need...

saturday morning

27 wounds and a word embedded on my wrists are all i needed for me to realize that my only hope was taken away from me once again..why does it have to be always like this?why me?so much fo everything that i held on to..i am tired..tired of believing all the false hopes and broken dreams..i have become a skeptic..a skeptic who will never be the same old gullible person that i was..but i still need to know the reason of my being..the reason why the wind took him away from me..i need to understand for me to calm the beast that i have become..i need to understand for me to save myself from the horror that i might do to myself...


at least for now..

07/07/07

wedding singer

there are still so many words that i'd like to say
still so many songs that i'd like to sing
so many plans that i'd like to pursue
a plan to have a life with you.

but now that things have changed,
tears are now falling down my face,
my heart is now shattered in this place,
wishing me out of this maze.

and now that you arte leaving,
with those wedding bells ringing,
it seems for you that all is fading
yet still, i would treasure everything.

as you wait for her down the aisle,
as you watch her sweetest smile,
i would turn my back away
but promise, i would always stay.


sept 26, 2004

twilight

alone
having no one to talk on the phone
lost
like a roaming ghost
insane
not even feeling the same
bored
as an out-tuned chord
having a heart that sores
for nobody cared to open a door
having eyes that are swollen
for my happiness is stolen
weakand still i can't speak
down
in this face is a frown
frightened
but never been haunted
rejected
until when will i be unwanted?

Copyright ©2004

an entry to a poetry.com contest
which made to the semi-finals :)