before and after frank

yes, i'm back. i was out for a couple of days from this sphere. i dealt with myself's emotion and short coming. it was last week when i bumped in with an illusive prank on a friend's page. there were foul words which hit me big time. i know for myself that i delivered my words the gentlest way that i could ( i even mistaken that person as somebody else) but in return, i still got that piercing chant. on the verge of this crap, i was hoping for an answer from my friend. but to no avail, i got nothing despite the tons of messages on his YM and his mobile. as always, he removed his cbox from his page. just that. i have my reasons as to why i'm ranting this way. friendship is so important for me. i took sometime off just so to have a break and think things over. this is how my blog looked like for a couple of days (right image). thanks for those who dropped in some message on my cbox. so sweet :)

let's cut the drama, there is more to rave about. recently, i joined The Blog Awards Challenge 3. my entry entitiled "ang pangalan ko ay pen palaboy" was the best entry and was the reader's choice. wee! i did not expect such recognition. thanks! thanks! thanks! congratulations as well to the rest of the winners, kudos!

my message goes:

maraming salamat sa lahat ng nagbasa, bumoto at nakiosyoso :D wala ni sa
hinuha ko ang mapabilang sa mga napangaralan. salamat sa mga hurado.ang
madaaanan ng inyong mga mata ang mga salitang sinambit ko ay higit pa sa
kaligayahang nadarama ko. hanggang sa muling pagkikita..

AKO SI PEN PALABOY!

aside from this, i have something to rave about. this happened hours before frank came to manila..

i so much love you guys!

alak, yosi at ikaw

alak.
sa malamig at
mamawis mawis mong botelya
ako'y napapakapit sa tuwing
ika'y dumadampi
sa aking mga labi.
sa bawat daloy
ng taglay mong kamandag
ay kakaibang mundo ang nararating.
langit sa kalagitnaan ng realidad.
hari sa sirko ng tagay at kampay.

yosi.
sa maputi't makinis mong katawan
at sa amoy mong nakakabaliw
sinusuko ko sa 'yo ang bawat oras
ng kasiyahan at katahimikan.
sa bawat hithit ng
nakalalason mong gayuma
kakaibang ginhawa
ang nadarama.
tila tinatangay
at napapadpad sa kawalan.

ikaw.
ang nag-iisa kong ikaw.
mundo ng sariling katinuan.
ilaw sa bawat kadiliman
ng ating karimlan.
sa bawat hirap at ginhawa
nariyan ka at kaakibat.
binubura ang bawat luha
at pinapalitan ng walang
'sing tamis na saya.

alak, yosi at ikaw.
mga natatanging kakampi
sa bawat giyerang sugurin.
subalit sa tuwing lango na sa
kamandag at gayuma,
tila ako'y nakakalimot at tumatalikod.
bawat lagok
ay mapapait na luha
mula sa iyong mga mata.
bawat buga'y
nagbibigay sa iyo ng pangamba.
bawat basyong itinataob,
bawat upos na nalulupos,
katumbas ay mga
pangakong nadudurog.

hangad ko'y kapatawaran..
mahirap ma'y aking pipilitin
na ang alak at yosi
ay i-isang tabi.
pasasaan pa't
lilipas din itong kabataan
at kusang itutwid ang mali..
ang pagkukulang ay pupunuin..
panahon lamang ang aking hiling
at lahat ng iyong lumbay
ay aking kikitilin..

friday the thirteenth

friday the 13th is considered a day of bad luck for most of us. thirteen (13) is said to be unlucky or irregular since it will always give you a remainder of 1 when your divide it by 2, 3 , 4 or 6. friday, on the other hand is considered a doomed day because for a fact, as per the bible, Jesus died on a friday.

the fear for this day is called paraskavedekatriaphobia derived from the greek word paraskevi (friday) and dekatreis (thirteen). although there are a number of significant accidents, i still considered it a lucky one.

it was last friday when i finally had my awaited rest day. i was excited. so much excitement that my heart almost burst. it's been a while since i went out on a friday night, considering that my life's routine is work and home.. a mall rat at times. two of my blog friends, BUNSO and KUYA M, and i finally decided to meet in person.

i won't go on the details since it is for me to keep. with wasabi chips and overflowing beer, it was a blast! non stop laughter and story telling of topics anything under the sun.if not for the dawn, we would not stop.. i had fun. so much fun that it still gives me the same feeling of excitement right at this very moment. it is not everyday that i meet friends; this one, i will truly keep.

shall you track back my archive, you'll be able to see that this is one of the few happy posts, if not, this is the first of its kind. i don't usually brag about happy thoughts since i want them to remain inside me. i posted this just so you know how proud and greatful i am to finally meet them in person. this is just the beginning of an endless friendship... i won't let this slip anymore.

to bunso and kuya m, thanks! love you guys!

ngayon ay father's day. subalit hindi ko alam kung dapat ko ba itong ipagdiwang o ipagsawalang bahala na lamang. lagpas dalawang taon ko na rin kasing hindi nakikita ang perslab ng buhay ko. mailap kung siya ay magpakita sa panaginip. sa mga pagkakataong iyon, hindi pumapalyang manubig ang mga mata ko, animo'y nagmistulang pabrika ng mga luhang hindi alam kung saan tutungo.

si papa ang nag-iisang super hero ko. siya si shaider na handa akong ipagtanggol sa mga kasanib ni haring ley-ar. siya ang taga punas ng luha ko sa sandaling dumanak na ito, taga haplos ng likod ko sa sandaling ang kalungkutan ay sumaklob sa akin. parang salamanka na isang pitik lang ay maayos na ang lahat. nakita ko sa kanya ang ehemplo ng isang butihing ama at butihing asawa. maswerte kami ng mga kapatid ko sapagkat hindi niya kami pinabayaan. kabalikat ni mama, dalawa silang nagsumikap upang mabigyan kami ng marangal na pamumuhay.

pa, kung nasaang lupalop ka man ng kalangitan, nangungulila ako sa iyo ng lubus lubusan. makita lang kita kahit sandali, yayakapin kita ng sobrang higpit. hindi man kita nabigyan ng maginhawang buhay noong mga panahong ipinahiram ka Niya sa amin, alam kong higit pa sa kaginhawahang kaya kong ibigay ang ngayo'y natatamasa mo. mahal na mahal kita! happy father's day!

doce de hunyo dos mil otso

si juan nasa lansangan
isinisigaw ang daing sa kahirapan
walang katapusang pangangatwiran

kumukulo
kumakalam
sikmura'y walang laman

umaalab
sumisilab
kalooba'y humihilab

nag-aaklas
napupumiglas
salitang sandata'y ibinibigkas

nagniningas
pumapagaspas
mga paa'y kumakaripas

tumatakbo
humahabol sa kalayaang
kanyang nais matamo

umaasa, nakikibaka
itodo mo na boses mo'y kulang pa
ilang dekada pa ba upang ika'y dinggin nila

JUAN!
bakit ika'y paroo't parito
hindi alam kung saan patutungo

nasaan na, nariyan pa kaya
kalayaang ipinamana
ng mga ninuno't mga kasama

si juan nakahandusay sa lansangan
tirik ang mata
hindi na humihinga


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